And thats how it goes down.

This pain is killing me.

2009-05-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

duudeee, i miss my straight hair. =(
but no worries ! gonna straighten my hair in the summer.
cant wait cant wait.
after dat, maybe im gonna color my hair.
wakakaka.
get lighted up everytime i think about it.

so anyways, i pierced my ear.
yes, again.
pierced with babe jenny, jess and hana.
like dat 20 bucks bo liao edi. =="
i was my 1st inner ear pierced so im so damn proud of it.
but screwed by parents for a few seconds but than they shut up.
maybe they realized that they cant stop me from getting any more piercing.

ppl ask why am i so addicted to piercing..
i have no fcking idea.
maybe i just like to get myself blinged up ?
but no, im not a psycho who is addicted to the pain.
the more i pierced, the less pain i feel.
seriously.
the piercing did not hurt when its piercing but after i return home
fckk !!
damn fcking hurts.
since i pierced both of my ear, so yah, u can imagine how i sleep.
im so used to sleeping on 1 side and now i cant.

someone told me that piercing during summer is not good.
cuz apparently sweats could effect the piercing.
okay lah, i admit lah. does makes sense.
but i dun give a damn.
i would pierce at any season i wanna pierce.
planning to get another piercing next month ! woooooot !

unfortunately, i am now sick.
sorethroat + noseblock + fever
i dunno why and i feel so restless.
was actually suppose to pei my silly boy to shopping, but canceled it cause of my sickness.
lou gong, forgive me.... =(

* would include a pic of my piercing in the next post !

Once apon a time.

2009-04-26T18:39:00.002+08:00

i was looking through Rach's blog archives from the every start and i came across a post when she was tagged and at the bottom of the post, she tagged me. the date ?

Nov 26, 2007 !

fulamak. i didnt even know i was tagged. so since im bored, i've decided to do the tag after 2 years of being tagged.

lol.

i am so update.

i hate thinking of people's name so i'll just go with whatever names that comes into mind.

1. Rach
2. Chung
3. Ade
4. Kim
5. Mandy
6. Suren
7. Shanae
8. YJ
9. Shah
10. Crystal
11. Erich
12. Fayemei
13. Jenny
14. Ee Hoong
15. Yap
16. Pei Fern
17. Billy
18. Lionel
19. Iskandar
20. Shaun

how do you get to know 14? Ee Hoong.
.... loooooooong story. But heard about him for the first time through Rach ?

what would you do if you had never met 1? Rach.
I would not be tagged. lol. kidding. i would diee.

what would you do if 9 & 20 had dated you? Shah and Shaun.
hell noooo !

would 6 and 17 make a good couple? Suren and Billy.
They dont even know each other. But they would be such a perfect couple, has so much in common. hahhaha

do you think 8 is attractive? YJ.
erm.. i guess..

do you know anything about no . 12’s family? Fayemei.
Yes, my shopping mate.

tell me something about 7. Shanae.
a true pianist !

what is no. 18’s favourite? Lionel.
i have no idea.... im such a bad friend. ==

what language does 15 speaks? Yap
eng, malay... do you speak mandarin and cantonese ?

who is 19 going out with? Iskandar.
I have no idea. gotta catch up with him soon.

how old is 16 now? Pei Fern.
15 going to 16. amazing bday : Dec 31st 1993. She got the whole world celebrating with her !!

when was the last time you talked to 13? Jenny.
few hours ago. asked for homework. :D

would you date 4? Kim.
awwww ~!! my lesbo.

would you date no. 17? Billy.
errr.. a nice friend. *silence*

Is 15 single? Yap.
Yes ! get him girls !!

what is no. 10’s last name? Cystal.
Ip. She's the name behind the movie 'IP MAN'

would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11? Erich.
HELL NOOO ! not over my dead body.

which school does 3 goes to? Ade.
SMKTBM.

where does no. 6 live? Suren.
Maluri.

what is your favourite thing about no.5? Mandy.
Her passion for fashion. :D

I am sorry...

2009-04-22T23:42:00.002+08:00

I know I have not been updating about my life sometime now.
But these days i've spent most of time emo-ing that i have absolute no interest in blogging about my life activities.
Maybe its because of my period.
yes, im open about my period.
so just suck it !

I feel so bad.
I've been such a jerk lately.
and it had made our relationship hell.
we've never argued so many times before.

we're just too stubborn to admit our mistakes.
hell, we are still not admitting it now.

But....

We talked on the phone just now.
Didnt argue, but that time can sense that both of us really bu shuang.
Gonna bust to anger anything edi.
In my case, its tears.

Then he said something.
I just keep quiet. Didnt say anything.
Maybe he felt that i didnt care..

But i was quiet because i was listening.
His words, i feel so touched.

and i've realized that the things that he said are true.
and i've realized that this relationship is not only me one person only.
and i've realized that because of this relationship, he san fu alot.

i feel like a fcked up jerk.

I am not gonna talk about this topic anymore.
I am tired because we are always unhappy because of this.

老公, I am really sorry...
forgive me ?

Started in a simple conversation.

2009-04-21T00:14:00.003+08:00

Mum and dad are finally back. damn, missed home and duchess.
infact, she is actually sleeping next to me with her butt near my face. i told you she's a bitch.

Did not blog much these few days. i was either busy shopping or emoing.
Been a rough week.

Things happen which i hope it didnt happen but i cant control that it happen and it is still happening.

Its your life. I cant control your life. I dont rule your life. You live your own life.

I'll just be standing right next to youu, holding your hand when you need me.

Maybe i shouldnt blame you. Maybe i shouldnt blame her. Maybe the one who is to blame is me.

I try to close this topic. But everytime i see her, i get this feeling.

This isnt about the past anymore.
Because it is the present that matters.
I hope you understand.

fck. i dont wanna think this.
mind, shut up.
thoughts, go away.

I cant get this things over my head. Am i selfish ?
Whatever it is, i will keep holding on.
Because I love you.
Period.

Random things i found in the internet.

2009-04-13T21:36:00.008+08:00

i was just looking through a women's blog and i came across this.

in other words, 50 hottest men celebrities to have sex with...

and guess who's on the top ?

i got the f-ing shock of my life when i saw number 1.

TAKE A DEEP BREATH !

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need i say more ?

& WHY AMERICAN IDOL WHY ?!?!?!

2009-04-13T16:43:00.002+08:00

as mum, the ultimate American Idol fan was not here, i've skipped American Idol for a week. and hell ! i even forgotten that American Idol is aired another ep.

i was planning to catch the show back when mum comes back.

a few seconds ago, i was the hollywood gossip. i was very much entertained until i scrow down and......

HORROR OF HORRORS !!!!

guess who was fucking elimated ?

Scott MacIntyre !

to those who goes like who ?! he's the blind man in the show. and he has a fcking good voice almost better than Josh Gorban ! and ! he actually entered U at the age of 14 ! not to mention he is super cute and nice.

what the fck is americans thinking ?!?!

WHY ?!?!

last week, Megan was voted out and i was so devasted. she like has the coolest tattoo lah okay !

ohmygosh.

i freaking regreted that i read the Hollywood gossip.

i hate spoilers.

gotta stop blogging.

AMERICAN IDOL, HERE I COMEEE !!!

Remember when ?

2009-04-11T10:50:00.003+08:00

today someone gave me a link into a blog. i opened it and read it. nothing much, just a person saying about the person's life.

i scroll down and i saw a name that glued me into reading the blog. the blogger mention about him. and he didnt seem to be the same as last time.

last time i use to look back and regret the things that i kept so long inside of me without telling him my true feelings. he did not tell me his, so i did not tell mine. i was afraid of how things would turn out if i tell him. i used to wonder does he really have no more feelings towards me ? or is he just pretending like i am pretending ? pretending that everynight when we talk on the phone that we were not one.

i spent 2 years of my life thinking about him and how he feels for me. i spent 2 years wondering how he feels about me. i spent 2 years crying over him. and i spent 2 years listening him talking about her. ironically i spend 2 years telling him about different guys.

i used to think that love is just a game. but with him, i've learned that the greatest love is to be love and to be loved back.

Him,
i used to be confuse on to either love you or hate you.
i did not have the strength to hate you,
i did not have the strength to love you.

you had been the love of my life.
but you will always be my best friend.

you have thought me the meaning of love
and the most important,
how to love someone.

and now that you have found her

and i've found him.
i've learn to appreciate him more.
i've learn to cherish him more

all it is all thanks to you,
because i will have not know love if it wasnt for you.

and i'll be happy for you,
if you could be happy for me.

after all that we had been through.
i know we're cool.

Mr Wong,
i didnt believe in love until the day i met you.
i've never been as happy in my whole life.

we laugh.
we fought constantly,
but that have make me to cherish you more.

we have a long road ahead of us.
i do not want you to walk infront of me
i do not want you to walk behind me
i want you to beside me
hand in hand
through this road.

they dont know how long it takes,
waiting for a love like this.
i'll wait for you
i promise you.

because you gave me
something that make these all worth while.
you manage to disarm me
my soul is shining through.

if you're asking do i love you this much.
I Do.

A day at the saloon.

2009-04-09T22:05:00.004+08:00

just came back from saloon with jenny and her sis-in law.
both of them had nothing better to do, so they decided to go to the saloon just to wash their hair.
jenny came into the room and asked if i wanna join them.
what the heck ! of cause i'll join ! save energy on washing hair.
hehehe.

when into the saloon, jenny told them to use her shampoo instead of theirs.
kua zhang.
she replied, 'hei geh shampoo hui ling tou tau fat hou kon' (their shampoo makes the hair really dry.)
so i guess i cannot call her kua zhang since she really does have a point !

i usually go to a saloon not for their cutting or washing of hair. i know this sounds really weird, but i go to for the massage. chinese seem to enjoy massage really much ! the best massage was when fayemei brought me to a saloon and it was in completelly darkness, the only light where dim blue neon lights. in short, you will have no heck idea how the person who is washing your hair looks like or what shampoo they use.

i have the time of my life. if im not mistaken, they used 5 shampoo on me and countless massages. and they did it with full strength that even you could hear the chair rocking. after washing the hair, the guy would ask,

*conversations are translated to english

guy : would you like a massage on the neck ?
me : errr.. em-hmm. *completelly no idea what the heck is he talking about.
*massage

IT FELT SO GOOD ! * his hand underneath my clothes
me : fck ! whats happening ! arrrrrgghhh ~ enjoynyer..

after a few minutes,

guy : do you want a massage around your eyes ?
me : em-hmm !!!
*massage again. i nearly scream.

after a few minutes,

guys : do you want a massage around your head.
me : just go on !

*i've started to realized that i'll been staying there for an hour.

so back to the saloon today, the guy was blowing dry my hair when he asked in mandarin, 'ni shi na li lai de ?' (where are you from ?"
me :malaysia.
guy : bu guo ni hen xiang zhong guo ren.. (but you look like china's chinese.)
*getting annoyed
me : na yi zian zai ma lai xi ya you hen duo zhong guo ren lai a.. (long time ago, there were a lot of chinese that came to malaysia. true what ! during the british colonization.)
guy : o.. na ni hai shi zhong guo de ma.. (owh. then you still belong to china.)

WTF !?

i felt so insulted that moment. I do not belong to China. reasons ?
1. i am a banana. dont know how to read, write nor speak chinese.
2. i actually listen to english songs and i watch Hollywood movies.
3. i dont eat pig intestines.
4.even my grandparents are malaysian-borned.

see ! i am not china chinese ! and than he gave me a long speech on i look like china girls and stuff. fuck ! to makes things worse, he started talking about me being a vegetarian.

guy : zhe yang hen bu hao. (it is not good)
me : wei shen me ? (why ?)
guy : ben lai jiu bu hao a.. wo you yi ge mei mei ye shi zhe yang. mei tian bei wo ma. (it is not good from the beginning. i had a sister who is a vegetarian and she gets scolding from me everyday.)
me : ...... hao ke lian o.. (....... poor thing.)

see what i meant ? i hate this guy ?
i think he seriously has something against vegetarians. maybe he got dump by a vegetarian gf or something. there is nothing wrong with being a vegetarian ! fck ! even mum doesnt care and now a random guy from the saloon cares ?! we have a choice on wether we wanna eat pig,dog, snakes intestines or not. i personally find it really undoubtly gross.

and besides, im not even fully a vegetarian. i am half. promised mum to starts being a vegetarian at the age of 20 (and tattoos too ! ). im not being a fully vegetarian for the shake of my growth of boobs. they are still A cup. so i'll sacrifice these years on eating T.T meeat.

damn boobs ! when are you gonna grow ?!

Recent Updates.

2009-04-07T21:14:00.002+08:00

Left my blog for a while cause i was too busy to update them. feel so tired these days.

Mum & Dad left sis and i and headed to London and Paris. so ended up im gonna stay at Jenny's.

Thursday - reach Jenny's house.
Friday - stay at home.
Sat - Shopping with jenny.
Sun - Shopping with fayemei till 9pm. did manicure. wait for hubby for an hour. ate bbq during midnight. stay at hubby's house. sleep at 3.30am
Mon - shopping with jenny.

i gotta shop spending money.

off to do chemistry, mandarin, maths, art, history.

fck em' homeworks !

Pain.

2009-03-31T21:11:00.003+08:00

today while in school, while i was tie-ing my hair
i've realized dat my newly pieced earhole was without an earring.
and to my horror the hole was nearly closing.
i quickly took out a earring from my other piecing and put it in the newly pieced
and FUCK !
its damn pain !
its closing but practically i have to force its way into the hole

hell, i've never experienced such great pain in any of my piecing before.
i even scream.
imagine.
it still hurts whenever i touch it.

damn.
i've always have problems with the 3rd piecing.
last time, when i got the 3rd piecing on the other side,
it came with a fever and i ended up in the clinic.

and the doctor was damn rude lah okay !
all he did was asking me
"Are you sure u didnt take a needle and piece dat thing urself ?"
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wat m i ? stupid ?! den i said no and he replied,
"U sure ? cuz its so badly done."
he's sooo mean !!

den he said the stupidest thing a doctor can ever said.
he laughed and said
"so when are u gonna piece ur nose ? den after piecing ur nose u'll come bak here and see me. hahhaha."

my mum, being the most supportive mum said,
"exactly ! i told her not to piece but she doesnt listen. haih.. teens these days arh.."

see what i mean ?
he's damn mean !!

hmp !
even if i piece my nose and it got infected, i'll not come and find u.
i'll make sure that i'll to the next door clinic right infront of ur face.
and and !
i'll give him tip !!

den he went on saying how 'not a good girl' i am just becuz i fcking got more than 1 piecing.
its my life okay, not urs.
u dun nid 2 tell me how to live it.

People always blame the younger generations.
But have they stop and think.
Who raise us ?

Go away.

2009-03-28T22:30:00.004+08:00

My past is fcking hunting me.
i dunno how long more can i take this.

The city of love.

2009-03-22T21:36:00.006+08:00

i cant help but wonder why do we name the wet, full of saliva, out-of-breathe, head turning, sometimes led to orgasm kiss.

okay. sry. imagine i never mentioned the orgasm part.

why is it called

FRENCH KISS ?

actually, i personally feel that its racist to say

"Babe, u r so good in french kissing; makes me wanna eat you whole up !"

its actually racist but in a good way..

but still ! its racism !!

why dun be call it something like erm, Malaysian Kiss.

Malaysian kisses are oso not bad wat !

French might say,

"What is wrong with calling it French Kiss ?"

Well, duh lah. it'll make you guys sound like the world best kisser.

Maybe we really call it French Kiss because the French ARE rili good in kissing.

plus their Paris and hot slang that they have,

There is really no doubt that they are erm, romantic ?

but i didnt really heard got things about French before,

all i heard is that they are the worst tourist in the world.

*According to Yahoo ! Travel*

They are arrogant.

And they dont bath. and they stinks.

apparently, they put french rolls under their armpits while they cycled around Paris.

but i'll say,

GOOD WAT ! EXTRA SALT !

When the wind is blowing at your face...

2009-03-21T23:08:00.004+08:00

I am totally addicted to "To Make You Feel My Love" right now.
eversince Kris Allen performed it on AL, im stuck to it.
The verse that struck me the most :
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love
damn romantic.
goosshhh !! it makes me see butterflies and rainbows and fireworks !
i have listen to this song nonstop for 6 times
and i am listening to it right now.
the original and Kris Allen's version is the best.
dun need to search more.

today was just like any other day.
went out with hubby.
walk.shopping.eat.
most the shirts are not the kind dat i was looking for,
so didnt manage to buy anything.
went home at 2 something cuz hubby had to go play volleyball.
didnt wanna make me feel bored so asked me to go home first.

came home.
mum announced dat dad and her going out.
so ta pau for sister, me and Duchess.
ate at 8 something, bath at 9 something.
watched Russell Peters while eating dinner.
nearly fell down from the chair from laughter.

gah ! the song ended
REPLAY !!

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.

damn, im so in love with this song.

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
(no) There's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

if a guy sang this to me
i'll cry.
I swear i'll fall down to my knees
and ask him to marry me
after all, he said he would do anything to make me feel his love right ?

Let Freedom Ring !

2009-03-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

exam is finally over.
and im giving thanks to everyone whu had supporting me through this tough fcking asshard time.
i would like to thank to my bitch, Duchess for the constant annoyance.
i would like to thank my laptop whu always without fail was there to cheer me up.
i would like to thank American Idol as it gave me an excuse not to review. :D
i could not have survive without u.
your support would forever will be kept in my heart.
and lastly, i want to say sry to myself for allowing this depressing time to happen to me.
blah ! as if i got a choice.

exam was okay.
for the first time, i knew how to do maths and chem.
tq hubby for spending his time trying not to throw me out from the window when i told him i still dun understand after a long explanation.
so, i do really hope that i dun fail.

After exams, went to KTV with cathy, erich, jenny and cherry
they didnt have the mood and either was i.
the scenerio ?
they are singing in mexican and i dun understand shit.
so i just ended up sitting or rather layying down at the corner.
erich was having trouble with his mic
he claimed that he cant hear himself eventhrough he is with a mic.
jenny tried to explain dat it is normal for 1 person to not hear himself.
being frustrated, erich took out the cover of the mic.
and sang through the naked mic.
naked cause its like the mic not wearing any clothes.
damn kua zhang de !

ended up, all of us were feeling so high.
after ktv, we went shopping
where i pieced my ear again !
$10 fly.
so now i've got 4 piecing on the left ear and 3 on the right ear.
im planning to piece at least 1 more on each ear, but on the upper part of the ear.
dun rili feel like doing it here, so planning to piece it in dragonfly again.
somehow, i feel safer there.

tmr going on a date with hubby !
long time didnt went on a date wit him already.

White Valentine.

2009-03-14T22:54:00.003+08:00

Happy White Valentine people !

so apparently Valentine's Day is the day where girls gives present to guys.
And a month later, guys are suppose to return the love.
And dat day is called White Valentine.

Believe it or not, I've oni heard of White Valentine this year.
a week before Valentine's Day.
my opinion about White Valentine ?

completely BULLSHIT.

As if people dun spend enough money on Valentine's Day,
now they have White Valentine somemore !
wah sai ~~
completely waste of money lorh !!

My first reaction when i found out about White Valentine was,
"WTF MUST GIRLS GIVE GUYS FIRST ?!"
If guys give gurls 1st, den gurls give back oso not so bad.
Guys should be romantic marh !!

You might say that im old-fashioned.
okay, maybe just MAYBE im a little bit old-fashioned
but ! i bet most the gurls feel the same way !

Maybe that's because im not a really big fan of Valentine's Day
Its good to receive presents, gigantic bears and red thorny roses
But to me, Everyday is a Valentine's Day with him.

So in conclusion, based on Professor Lola's observation,
I therefore concluded that White Valentine is a completely waste of time,
because my hypothesis states that
If there is another Valentine, then the human race would spend more necessary $$$

Now who said im not good in science report ?!

What am i feeling ?

2009-03-13T17:08:00.003+08:00

Why are these fcking tears coming down ?
am i stupid ? did i let them take advantage ?
but dat is not how i feel.
i just feel alone.

i feel so frustrated these days.
ended up, making me feel so grumpy and moody.

i must not be selfish.
because i know dat he cannot always pei me all the times.
he must spend time with his frens too.
as a girlfriend, i cannot control him cuz he has his rights too.

but why my heart feel so heavy ?
why do i feel unwanted ?

den why are the tears here for ?

i know i have been rili emo these days.
im sry dat i have to put u through all these nonsense.
im sry dat i cannot make u feel happy all the time.
im sry dat i cant be ur ideal girlfriend.
im sry dat i am not perfect.

@____@

2009-03-12T22:08:00.004+08:00

finally ! a pic wit hubby after such a long long time. its not dat we dun like taking pics, we just... dun look rili good in them. so apparently, some ppl r born with the disabilities of taking ugly pictures. yay. didnt get piggy back from him for so long edi. this means, LOU GONG ! I WANT MORE PIGGY BACK ! :D

and to any1 whu is gonna say "he looks more like ur bro lerh !"

HAHHAHA.

do me a favor and go fck yourself. i hate it when ppl say dat. i noe im short, dun nid to tell me dat. i noe he's tall, dun nid to tell me dat. so wat if i like like taller guys ?! and no, we DONT look like bro and sis.

i've not been blogging cuz my life had been dull, boring, unstandable. not only do we nid to pass 2 project at the same DAY, but exam's next week. so not onli have i not review, i did my nails and erm.. yah, dats pretty much it. see wat i mean, dull !! nothing much has been happening. so in short, i gotta create more drama to my life to keep me from stoning into space.

But at least something did happen today...

Jenny wanted to go to the CR after IT class. so i being the good fren teman her lah.. usually, the toilets door are closed even if there is no freaking person there. so jenny open the door and checked if there was any1 and maybe, just maybe today was her lucky day. so anyway, she opened the door and..... to her horror....

the cleaning lady was in the bathroom. yes, she was already sitting. yes, she was "doing" her business. yes, her pants was down. no, i DID NOT see anything way doooooown there. pls lah, im not dat gross.

so Jenny, being "consederate" let out a small scream and quickly close the door and rush to the other toilet while i was TRYING SO SO HARD to control the laughter. although the cleaning lady doesnt understand cantonese, but i dun wanna make her feel uncomfortable marh !!

den, a teacher arrive. and like jenny, she open the door, this time opened the door wider than jenny. i swear, i almost laugh my ass off ! now, the thing is....

WTF is wrong with the cleaning lady ?! any1 in their right mind would THINK about locking the door after some1 accidently open the door ryt ? but she continued to let the door open and not locked until another victim comes by. Be more consederate woman ! omg.. paiseh paiseh..

why must treat ppl like this lerh ? Why must treat urself like this lerh ?!

lesson learned : Like grandma always said, always ALWAYS locked the door when u're doing ur business. if u dun wanna lock it... Oh for God's sake ! just freaking lock the door lah.

my ass is frozen.

2009-03-07T23:45:00.006+08:00

its fcking cold these days. it was sunny last week and i was wearing short sleeves so why oh why u ! winter, came bak !! nothing to do arh ! you're just a fcking sadist whose enjoy seeing ppl's butt touching the toilet bowl and shout....

"SWEET MOTHER OF LORD !!!"

i, representing all of mankind hope dat u winter, u would be defected by spring and everything under your spell would be ruin. trees would gain their hair bak and i dun fcking nid to wear 3 clothes anymore ! u wait and see lah, u stupid !@#$%^&*

*ahem. *embrassed smile*

went to Anna's house for Youth gathering today. everyone was there, miss them. didnt see them for a week ! we played games and made our own err, mini something-i-dunno-how-you-call-it.

for some reason, when Jason started to make his mini pizza, everyone came buzzing him.

Go Allison !

Anna and i. after taking tis pic, we ran our way inside. it was fcking cold.

Margeate with her pizza. she never smile for pictures. =="

having exams next next week. i think. im not sure when it is. so might not be blogging so much. cuz me being the ultimate good student is absolutly trill for the exam dat i'll spend every second of mine reviewing.

hell no ! screw exams.

Love is actually all around.

2009-03-01T21:42:00.004+08:00

watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
DAmn ! its a good movie.
i'll give it rank 9 over 10.
yes, i do feel its dat good.

its due to :
- wonderful cast
- great dialogues
- made me used up 5 pieces of tissues.

The end part was amazing.

This is what we call true love.

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Im 16 already.
feel so old.
bday okayokay bah..

but his present is most special.
although its not big, but its meaningful.
tis proves that big presents doesnt mean its the most meaning.
the most meaningful present is the present of the heart.

i wanted so badly to posh a picture of it, but he didnt 1 people to see it so.... :(

put all the blame him. its not me. its him.

老公, 谢谢！！

Are they Sluts ?

2009-02-22T19:34:00.004+08:00

While the whole world is falling in love with Angelina Jolie and her Jolie-Pitt children empire, I admire Britney Spears, Lindsay Lohan and Paris Hilton. Everyone call them "messed up", "slut" and "whore". But the whole world forgotten that they once fall deeply in love with Spears and Lohan. (not so much on Hilton's side.)

So why do people hate them ? Does choosing the wrong guy make Britney a 'messed up' ? Does an early rise to fame and being a lesbian make Lohan a 'slut' ? Does making a porno make Hilton a 'slut' ?

Everyone had in their life chose the wrong guy in their lifes. But does that make u a mess up ? I chose plenty of guys that i shouldnt had be with, but does that makes me a mess up ? Hell no ! It is part of life ! So why on hell is Britney choosing the wrong guy make her a mess up ?

Lindsay Lohan partying everynite and being a lesbian makes her a slut. *roll eyes
What did partying do wrong to you people ?!?! She is a lesbian, let her be ! Why are all of you supporting Ellen DeGeneres but not Lohan ? They are just the same !

As for Hilton. Cmon ! im sure many people in the world had make a porno. its just that they are not famous nor is it put in public.

Not that im fully madly in love with these people, exp for Lohan. She's my favourite. But ! Before we judge them, we just have to think that they are just peeps like us; exp with a more glamorous, paparazi-chasing lifestyle.

My Idol fever is back !

2009-02-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

Yep !
My all time fav show is bak !

I've watched American Idol since 11 and i was addicted ever since. i watched all ep in season 3 to 8. I had my favs in every season. and no, im not a fan of Taylor. when he won, i stoned and a few seconds later you could hear me roaring "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!"

i have already pick my favourite this season. He is not only good looking but kind and a good singer too !
how could you ever find such perfect man ?!?! *sigh

He is none other than Danny Gokey.
Here's my guy. <3<3<3<3<3

how could anyone not love him ?

wakakak. too bad for you fella, im gonna stick with u throughout the competition !!

Niu Year && randomness

2009-02-12T21:51:00.003+08:00

I know its too late but heck, im a late person so HAPPY NIU YEAR !!!

Trip to home was way wayyyy better than previous.

i went bak to skool n meet tons of peeps. EVERY1 asked and said the same thing.
"How's China ? "
"OMG ! u thin already !!"
"ehh, how come u still short ?"

i short and thin cannot hor ?!?!

went out with kim and lionel and sis n were supposed to watch Inheart but than at the last minute, we decided to skip the movie. Lionel's treat. Sry Lionel. :D

went to mandy's hse with kim and mandy. kim n i decided to end the war between Depp and Bloom for good and therefore we took 3 papers with Depp, Bloom and Bosnan's name and asked strangers which the prefer. Depp FREAKING won. But !! i have an explanation !

*ahem. most of Bloom's fan r teen girls and when we were there, most the teens are in skool !
So basicly of cuz Depp won lah ! cuz all woman wat..

BUT ! i will not give up ! cuz deeeeeep inside i know dat he is much much much better than Jack Sparrow.

Do i need to say more ? <3>

Valentine's Day is coming !!!! its a time for the most romantic day of the year again. its either you hate it or you like it. Hubby and i asked Jenny wat would she be doing on Valentine's Day and she said she will be spending it with her parents.

And than it struck me !

OF CUZ..
whu said valentine's day is for couples ?! we should show our love 2 our parents too ! for the hard shit times dat they rise us, for the damn fucking painful canning dat we get from them and with Valentine's Day, we r given the chance to thank them for the allowances we never get enough of !
So singles, instead of mouning of ur singlehood, at least spend ur day wit some1 or something u love.
For couples, sry for u. You had no choice but to be with ur other half.

arghh.. wat the heck m i saying. im not spending it wit my parents. =="

updates updates !

2008-12-16T13:15:00.005+08:00

i got a new camera !!
i was in LOVE wit for the first few days. its deep pink in color, made me fall in love with it more. den after a few days, no more feel. not that it sucks, but its still like other cameras, videos, take pics... so i guess its nothing special ryt ? but...... im waiting for a new phone now ! =D

i hate holidays.

we started our holidays last fri. after skool, all of us went to hubby's house for party. the guys went downstairs to buy some beer for everyone, except sis n melody; too young to drink. hubby said i was drunk ? i didnt drink that much wat ! drank abt a bottel and a half, i think. *knocks head
i gotta learn how to drink.

yesterday hubby n i took sis out. we took lunch at a Singaporan restaurant. he n i ordered chicken rice. he enjoyed it and said he would go there if it wasnt so expensive. i told him he HAS to come to msia some day n try the actual malaysian chicken rice ! later we went walking in zhong san lu. along the streets of zhong san lu, there r like small lorong where there are rili rili small shops like salon etc etc.. hubby said at night, those of the place of prostitutes. den i asked him if like these are the prostitutes place or not, den he said yah. before i noe it, everytime we come to a small lorong, i asked if there r prostitudes' homes.

*pointing at small lorong
me : ko pin yao mo ?
hubby : *without looking* yao..
me : ko pin nei ?
hubby : yao ~
me : ko pin nei ?
hubby : yao lah !! lei hou fan a ~~
me : .....

i just love it when i annoyed him. =D

hubby went travelling wit Mike and would not be coming bak 4 10 days. T.T i miss him !!!
i said he has to bring me travelling too some day !

*sniff
im gonna cheer myself up with some movies..
today im gonna watch.................

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THE MUMMY !!
im so darn proud for it was filmed in china.

Bye Bye 2008 !

2008-12-09T18:05:00.002+08:00

2008 coming to an end. i dunno y but this year seem 2 pass by so quickly ! i told almost every1 abt it, but as usual, no1 actually bothered wat i said. ==

but rili lorh.. 1 day i was in class wit jenny when i asked her wat date is dat day. den she said "Dec 2". I look at her with the =O face n said "its already dec ?! soooo fast !!!" she gave me nothing but tis face : ==" I had actually been in china for 1 and a half years. can imagine ? damn fast !

looking bak, i hav no much regrets in 2008. (i had plenty in 2007. n i mean PLENTY). but i still have regrets lah, but not many.. only one tiny winy one. it's been a good year lah.. heheh. sigh. the more i think abt it, the more i feel how suck 2007 is. but than again, i dun think without the sadness and tears from 2007, i would not have the laughter of 2008. =]]

hubby going holidays with frens 4 10 days. T.T miss sei him.

Meet The In-laws.

2008-10-26T18:25:00.002+08:00

After school on friday, jenny, me & hubby secretly hopped into jenny's bus to Hu Li.
The things there are so damn cheap !
Jen got her dress for Y55 (RM 28) and the design was so damn niceee ! arrghh ~~ i wanted the dress so much. but since im a good friend, i decided to let go of the wonderful dress and gave it to my best buddy. *sniff Im such a good person.

*ahem
okay, enough of self-praising.

i bought a super nice sexy pink dress. IT WAS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. we asked how much it is. i was praying for the price to be low but unfortunately, God didnt seem to have the time for me at that point cause it turned out to be Y120 ! Jen was so good in bargaining that she took my hand and left. the shop person than realized that we were about to leave and than beg us not to go and asked us how much we one. ngek ngek ngek. Y90 ! the dress was mine.

so than hubby havent get his suit, so had to teman him to shop.

I NEARLY DIE.

i never shop with a guy before as in never shop helping a guy buy stuff. he tried on a pair of pants, than ask me how is it. I glanced at it and said "its okay." than he tried on another pair and he asked me how is it. i dunno wats wrong with me but I CANT SEE ANY DIFFERENCE !
i finally found out the difference after looking really really closely. as close as the pants were an inch from my nose.

we than go to zhong san lu and bought his shirt from G2000. Y200 fly.
as we were walking, he suddenly got a wonderful idea and decided to bring me to meet his mum.
AAAAAARRRRRRRRRGHHHH ~!!!!
i was practically paralyze on the way to his home.
His mum's voice is damn nice wei ! and no, im not praising her just for the sake of praising her, but her voice is like those young kawaii girls. i want that kind of voice. T.T
his mum over all is nice lah. She asked me to come over next weekend and she would cook for us. heheh.

For the fun of it, we than decided that its hubby's time to meet mum. he was damn nervous till it was funny !
he later realized that he's not suppose to worried about mum but instead the dog. =="
mum treated hubby really coolly but at the end okay already. hubby went home at around 10:30

Meet both in-laws within 3 hours. not bad lah. not bad lah.

Note.

2008-10-26T15:31:00.001+08:00

I have so MANY things to talk about. The post would be divide into 2.

If I die....

2008-10-19T21:11:00.004+08:00

didnt blog for a few days.
hubby n i had been having super bad luck these days !
1st : rush movie project like mad. damn stress. every1 was getting fed up with each other. didnt have time 2 spend with hubby. den editted dat god damn movie at the veli last minute ! den forgotten 2 save the movie in2 media file, got minus 5 points.
2nd : hubby's mandarin teacher was scolding some student. he being the usual 'pat gong' took out his cellphone n recorded it. suddenly.... DIsiplin teacher came in, saw him recording, phone got confiscated. got a warning letter n cant get phone until the end of the skool year until his parents come n meet the headmaster. i was teasing him asking why wanna be such a busybody until he said he actually recorded it cuz he wanna show me. :S felt guilty.
3rd : hubby got caught again after a grade 5 student reported some1 stole his candy. hubby n frens found those sweets n decided 2 curi makan. the grade 5 student came bak 2 class n found his sweet ALL GONE ! complained 2 disiplin teacher. kena AGAIN !
4rd : Crystal & Irlia bought dumplings from outside n bring it bak 2 skool 4 hubby n i. hubby ate oni 2 pieces den kena caught. got in2 trouble ONCE AGAIN !
5th : my period came n got damn easily pissed. AND ! my pimples came out as if they had nothing 2 do. n it took them nearly a week 2 get well ! they group around the corner of my lips n were damn red ! every1 asked me if i got allergy n i have 2 answer 2 every of them, "ITS JUST PIMPLES !" den they would asked, " u sure ?" den i would get so annoyed n say "Im getting my period lah !"
6th : exam 3 days. kena nagged by mum 4 not studying like mad. den dad came bak from work, nag somemore !

BUT THANK GOD EXAM'S OVER.

hubby n i wanted 2 watch a movie a few days ago..
hubby : lou po, y dun 1 day u come 2 my house n we watch a movie together ?
* face lighted up. thought hubby was finally being romantic n decided 2 watch a romantic comedy together.
me : okayy !! lets watch ! wat movie do u wanna watch.
*hubby's face lighten up. YES ! he's rili gonna watch a romantic movie wit me !
hubby : lets watch KUNG FU PANDA !
me : huh ?
hubby : its damn good ! i've watch it 4 times. lets watch it again.
me : errr.. okayy.
*dissapointed betul.

so i downloaded the movie n bought the usb 2 his home, den it didnt work so we ended up watching WALL-E. i dunno wats d problem wit us watching disney animated movies. i dunno if any1 had watched it, but its DAMN BORING ! there were almost NO dialogs. the oni part i like was when wall-e saw eve n asked for her name. n Eve go "EVEEEEE-ED" n Wall-E go "im WALLLL-E" arrghh ~ i dunno how 2 explain it, but its damn funny lah the way they talk. after dat, hubby n i got fed up n off it.

after the movie, hubby cycled me to the nearby park. was so far the most romantic thing we did. but after dat, my butt hurts as hell.

the next day, we went riding again but the weather was damn hot. once in a while, while cycling he would go "WOOOT !" . hahha. its damn weird but cute in a way. den we went shopping, wanted 2 buy a curling iron. there's tis place where they selled it dirt cheap. oni RM16 for one. went there n
IT CLOSED DOWN !
i nearly cried. its the cheapest place 2 get all these stuff ! i bought my flat iron there, 4 about RM 10 something. but it works well n it heats damn fast.

he then starting talking some random stuff. saying how by a girl's hair, u could know her personality. he said those girls wit wavely hair are mostly matured n are sexually active (WTF?!) n those wit straight hair r mostly cute n innocent & dun think abt sex. i was thinking, since i hav straight hair, i must be innocent ?! ngek ngek..

*ahem.
yah, im innocent.

Uncle Tom from US came 2 xiamen today n visited dad. dad then came bak n he was about 2 tell a joke. he usually has a facial expression when he's about 2 tell a joke. he den said "Tom went 2 Spain n visited his fren. his fren had tumor n was told dat he oni has a few months 2 live." den guess wat ?!?!?!

HE STARTED LAUGHING !

den he said Uncle Tom asked wat would dad do if he noes dat he oni has a few months 2 live. n den he laughed again !
its damn evil lah okay !
1st, ppl is freaking dying n its NOT funny.
n 2nd, if i noe dat i oni got a few months 2 live, i'll do damn fucking alot of things lah okay !
This is my list of things dat i would do if i oni hav a few months 2 live.

1. i'll visit every continent. inculding Antartica !
2. i would go bak 2 msia 4 a month n eat AS MUCH AS I CAN.
3. i'll get a plastic surgery on my boobs. (ehh, come on lah, i wanna die wit boobs okayy..)
4. learn swimming.
5. swim face-to-face with dolphins.
6. get married with hubby. (if im underage, den run away marridge)
7. SKY-DRIVE !!!
8. appear on TV. even if i hav 2 burn the White House while shouting "BUSH, U SUCK !!!"
9. go camping with hubby by the seaside.
10. experienced at least 1 natural disaster.
11. tell my parents dat im pregnant n freak the hell outta of them.
12. call on 2 the national radio station n sniff n sob of how i love every1 n how i would miss them.

DAMN MANY THINGS 2 DO LAH !
number 6 is extremely important.

im getting married !!

2008-10-11T22:15:00.008+08:00

hahah. i wish lah.

i personally hate attending wedding ceremonies. first, we would be sitting with relatives whom we RARELY meet and usually i even forget that they're my relative. second, we have to wait fucking long for the food to arrive. third, when the bride and the groom walks pass, most of us barely notice them cuz most of us would be busying insulting the bride and groom. (depends on which side im on. if im from the groom, i'll trash the bride and if im from the bride, i'll trash the groom.) then i would spend most of my time asking my mum who's this and who's dat and *gasp !* i found out they're my relatives. who knew i had so much of them ?! and then, one old vain lady, called 'tai kam jie' (i only know how to say it in cantonese and i think this word barely exist in english voc.) would appear on the stage and talk one load of craps and SOMETIMES they would be people singing on the stage and it really really REALLY gets on my nerves....

GOOD NEWS !!!

MY wedding would have none of those !! if i ever have a wedding..
only a few amount of people would be invited to my wedding, so none of those "huh ?! dats my relative ?!" things would happen. my wedding is completely buffet, so you dont need to wait for the food and therefore starved to death. 'tai kam jie' is not allowed ! if one ever comes, i'll kill her. it would have a life band whom guests could requests songs for. and no1 is allowed to sing !
guests include : my family. his family. best friends.

hubby and i were in the taxi after school today when we pass a few pairs of couples taking their wedding photos by the road side. ( no, its not the normal road side, it kinda has a beautiful background thing.) as i was trying to talk to hubby, the taxi driver angily said
"why are all the couples taking their wedding pics by the road side ?! the background is not that good."
i was thinking maybe he got some problems with weddings. maybe he just got a divorce. den hubby said,
"yahh. i feel so too."
my head went complelety ?????? whats wrong with people taking pics by the roadside ?!
then hubby asked,
"lou po, if we ever got married, are we gonna do the same thing as those couple ?"
i thought for a while and yelled up a big loud "NOOOOO !!"

seriously, why would u want to have the same wedding as everyone else ?
its YOUR special day so why make it ordinary ?
you should make it extra-ordinary and not ordinary.

every girl dream about the their dream wedding day every once in the lifes. i never thought about those fairytales dream weddings with me wearing a small tiara and a large puff dress. dun ask me why, i was really weird back then. i was about to tell hubby my dream wedding when he said,
"jump off from a plane and exchange vows in the sky ?"

OMG !!

dat was my exact dream wedding !! i wanted to hug him and kiss him and tell him that he's the love of my life. i was practically shouting when i said....
me : how did u know that i wanted to jump off from the plane and exchange vows ?!
* hubby laughs*
hubby : cause i wanted it too.

hehehe.
im so gonna exchange vows in the sky.

ARRRRRGGGGHHH ~!!!

2008-10-09T21:54:00.004+08:00

next week exam. and next week is oso PMR !!

talk to mandy today on skype and told her some *ahem* "big news". than we talk about some other random stuff and suddenly fucking comp got stuck !! shit. den it got stuck 4 about a few mins and then i decided that i'll just shut it down n start it ova again. i noe its not rili good 4 d comp but I WAS TALKING SOMETHING REALLY IMPORTANT !! den after restarting, i sign in 2 skype again and mandy wasnt on. ==

in another, wait, let me count... *counting*

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in another 3 days, hubby n i are gonna hav our 3 weeks aniversary !! i super duper ♥ HIM. recently, we had been playing this game where we had to stared at each other's eye as long as we could WITHOUT blinking. i so far had won once and he's leading. stuupid. but it aint fair ! cuz we would be staring at least other's eyes and than i would feel like laughing for some reason of i dun even noe of. Than when i laugh, my eyes would suddenly blink. and den hubby would jump up and say "HAAA ! I WON !" and started laughing endlessly. guys can be so childish sometimes. I'LL WIN HIM NEXT TIME ! JUST WAIT AND SEEE !!

recently, i've been so hyper and ham sap.
*grasp*
perhaps my period are coming ?!
According to some, a girl is EXTRA ham sap when her period is around the corner. true arh ? I dunno how how true is it but i feel almost the same all the time. either dat or im ham sap all the time. noooo..

cause u see, there's a difference between knowing stuffs and ham sap. Ham sap is thinking about sex all the time for no particular reason. When a person is ham sap, he/she thinks about sex with no particular person. Knowing stuffs on the other hand is knowing all or most about sex. Knowing about sex is really really important to a girl. come come i give u a tip.

* GUYS STAY AWAY.* [this is to prevent any guy of feeling insulted due to the msg below] oii !! still wanna see ar ? than its u're business lah then.

incase a guy force u to have sex with him, and u really dun 1 to. instead of pushing him away, pull him closer to you and when the bastard is near you, aim for his ahem. dont worry, he will not push u away cuz he think u would want to ahem his ahem. then when u get close to the ahem, just like slap dat ahem. use as much energy as possible ! the guy would then leave u alone and scream in pain.

You might ask why must slap dat ahem ? aaaa.. good question !

You see, guy's ahem are really really sensitive creature. (notice that i use the term creature). When its hard, its extra sensitive and when some1 hit it, its really extremely painful. dont ask me y, im not a guy. and again, IM NOT HAM SAP A ! these r really important facts dat girls should noe. its called SELF PROTECTION.

Once, i had a conversation with my guys friends and i was asking why do Asian guys prefer innocent girls who blushed or whu acts as if they did not see the word sex before. I personally really hate these kinds of girls. Sex is normal, everyone gotta do it someday right ? ehh, its part of nature okayy ! without sex, the world would have less population.
less population = less workers
less workers = less economic benefit for the country
less economic benefit for the country = everyone would be poor
everyone would be poor = world becomes a bad place to live.

So see. sex is not bad.

okay so bak to periods. i find it really personally extremely horribily unfair that us girls have to have periods every month. Why is it that us girls have to stick that freaking thick piece of shit to our undies everytime the "monthly visitor" comes ? Why is it us girls would have to deal with the stomache cramp ? Why is it that us girls have to waste our money on buying pads ? Why is it that it is us girls whu have to ask our friend to see if we strained our pants everything monthly visitor come and visit ? I find it so unfair lorh.. guys dun hav to worry about all these problems. dont need waste money and energy.

hmm.. maybe i should think about changing my genter to male......

Condoms & Pregnancy Test.

2008-10-08T00:26:00.004+08:00

ngek ngek ngek ~~ got ur attention didnt I ? I've decided to delete all my old post cause they were so god damn boring.

ANYWAYS......
today im gonna talk about condoms and pregnancy test !!! =].
ehh, im not ham sap okayy.. i have a good explanation of writing this.

Have u ever wonder why in pharmacy they always put the condoms and pregnancy test next 2 each other ? Im sure every1 notice it before right ? if havent notice, den make sure the next time u go 2 the pharmacy, u check. I noticed it lah, but didnt really pay attention to it. Then one day, i was walking around the pharmacy with my mum when suddenly i "accidently" went to the condoms and pregnancy test section.

Then it totally hit me !

Why are they next to each other ? I then find my mum and asked her about it.

Me : Ehh, why the condom and pregnancy test always together arh ?
Mum : *swt face* haiyahh ! dont ask so much lah ! the pharmacy so big why u must always go dat section ?!

Again, as usual, mum failed to answer my question.

I find it pretty insulting actually. Just imagine. If like a woman come to the pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test or maybe already took a pregnancy test and wanna take it again just to make sure that she has not been the most unlucky person on earth, then she walk to dat section and while trying to choose a pregnancy test, the condoms are next to her.

Damn right ! That woman would feel what lah ! She would be cursing and ~!@#$%^&* cause she would thinking if the guy did use the condom, she will not be in this situation.

And by placing the condoms beside the pregnancy test is so scary. to me lah at least. its like a warning that says, "You better buy me when u're doing it or not u would be coming back to get those next to me".And somemore, how come condoms are so cheap and pregnancy tests are so expensive ? both also used only once right.. 1 pack of condom cost like $7 i think. and 1 pregnancy test cost about $30 or $40. SEE THE DIFFERENCE ?!

I really feel that someone should invent a pregnancy test that is reuseable. like after using, wash it than put back into the box. save money ! and reduce global warming also. cuz pregnancy tests are made from plastics and plastics are bad for global warming. u see ! so useful and can reduce global warming. because you see, everyday people get pregnant right ? so means everyday pregnancy tests are being brought and thrown right ? so means everyday hundreds of pregnancy test are being thrown right ? omg. no wonder global warming happen.

hmmm.. maybe i should be the one to invent it. maybe can get Nobel Prize somemore for saving the environment. okayy.. have to do research.

I've realized that I didnt talk much about condoms.Condoms arh.. errr.. haiyah ! nothing about them lah. if got use, than good; if never use, than be prepared to go to the pharmacy and experience the scenerio written above.